👣vindictive

             BLOOM  His affection should never have been a payment of my loyalty On a table of acceptance a body without an identity, a single word in a forest that would have been a foundation all in alignment with a strong deliberate strokes of humiliation In all my conversations I have had to add the word like and the statement "you know what I'm saying" to everyone .Not him though .his understood One year ,three minutes and added fuck yous !but still it was brighter than ever Words refused to stick to the page Do you remember? Do you remember the time i took you to the candy shop Do you remember the time we lied that we were siblings Do you remember the now painted building The tension The kiss I remember thinking i was home Just as naive ,just as stupid ,just as foolish A confused little girl i was The saddest story though is that there were some days that were so vivid we had to remember but there are th...

A pain that lingers, a burden to keep, The trust once given, now shattered and lost, A bond that's broken, at a great cost. The ones we love, we hold so dear, Their words and actions, we hold so near, But when deceit enters the fray, The foundation crumbles, the love fades away. A mother's love, a father's pride, The siblings' bond, that cannot be denied, But when one turns, against the rest, A family torn, put to the test. The hurt and anger, they do collide, The pain so raw, it's hard to hide, The questions linger, the trust is gone, The family bond, now a distant song. The wounds may heal, with time and care, But the scar remains, a constant reminder there, Of the betrayal, the hurt and  broken, never the same again. A pain that lingers, a burden to keep, May forgiveness come, and love be restored, The family bond, once again adored. In fields of emerald, secrets dwell, A verdant gift, nature's spell.A token born from earth's embra...

THE GRIM REAPER  MY ROYAL ROD I HOPE MY WORDS GET TO LIVE SUICIDE ATTEMPT 💔 Rape! how beautiful is the water? The dark water As the air bubbles to the top of my asphyxiation  I must say watching me become a carrion is absolutely breathtaking *no pun intended * My body feels heavy My bones are complaining  I feel like this all the time   difference is that the previous time I was still in a monologue above the water How sad it is being in a coma Which means the devil doesn't want you either My angel maybe released a sigh  I am really at a point of extinction  I am sitted in the dark A drowning man  Well,I already gave up in earth I already gave up. I shouldn't take drugs because I am scared of addiction  Feeling like a stranger to my self  I am the worst in public The doctor knew I was lying  he knew I was faking Did he care really  I am scared to f things up  I saw the exit  I coul...

HIS FLAWS ARE NOT FLAWS THEY ARE ART MY MIND IS CHAOTIC WITH HIM AROUND  MY AFRICAN HITCH please  correct me if I am wrong about your thoughts I say I love you but what is in your head is that I am feeling a foolish petty attraction and you call it infatuation  It seems so cliché to write about this normally I would write it in my journal but my heart triggers the storm in my brain,the rain falls through my eyes ... lightening and thunder collaborate to strike my chest Do you know the difference of love and being in love with someone Love is the left over of being in love after the latter has burnt away I am staring at your captivating, lusting,intoxicating pictures you send me from time to time BABY AM OBSESSED! You bountiful soil of God Y ou are a victim to my apple of temptation ,your smile fuels my desire  I am not trying to make you smile TBH I am just trying to find words to describe you...sadly you are out of this world and m...

                   I DANCED WITH MY DEMONS AND LET THEM LEAD THEN KILLED THEM  YOU FEEL TOO MUCH YOU BECOME STOIC  CODEPENDENCY  APATHY AND EMPATHY  Ikilledthedarkandfellinlovewiththesunrays♟ I will give a scenario  Where you imagine yourself as a student and your classmates are the younger version of your friends at the moment let's say they are 6years of age you are still you with your present age The teacher is in class...the bell rings and she/he asks for your colours so you give her and she gives each and every one a colour  She says that each student should describe the colours as though they are describing them to a blind person  So they start Blue...hear the oceans and the waves Red...being burnt Yellow...warmth or near the fireplace when it is cold Purple...heat of the fire and the coldness of ice mixed   You dont have anything to say you can only describe white and black White...

I  KILLED THE DARKNESS AND FELL IN LOVE WITH THE SUNRISE  CUSTODY ! MONEY OR LOVE ROMEO AND JULIET ♥️ BONNIE AND CLYDE♥️ DEATH AND LIFE♟ Death is obsessed with life Death has always had a crush on life it is those forbidden things that make it so passionate so sweet to it but bitter to mankind I would give anything to have normal troubles  ...pizza or burgers Lmao I come out of the chamber fully aware of what I am to say because I copy pasted what the lawyer said I should  The bailiff looks at me and I could tell his soul had died long ago  I am at the witness stand all eyes on me as if I had done something wrong💔I am too young I do not understand the world  Because he was the law and the law was him The question was is it the one who gave birth to you or she who raised you  already knew the answer Truth is she I am fatherless I sometimes wish I knew father before  I am unaware of his voice ,judgement  I hope he was a good man I ...