IN MY EXTREXTREMIS 💔


THE GRIM REAPER 
MY ROYAL ROD
I HOPE MY WORDS GET TO LIVE
SUICIDE ATTEMPT 💔
Rape!
how beautiful is the water?
The dark water
As the air bubbles to the top of my asphyxiation 
I must say watching me become a carrion is absolutely breathtaking *no pun intended *

My body feels heavy
My bones are complaining 
I feel like this all the time 
 difference is that the previous time I was still in a monologue above the water
How sad it is being in a coma
Which means the devil doesn't want you either
My angel maybe released a sigh 
I am really at a point of extinction 
I am sitted in the dark
A drowning man 
Well,I already gave up in earth



I already gave up.
I shouldn't take drugs because I am scared of addiction 
Feeling like a stranger to my self 
I am the worst in public
The doctor knew I was lying
 he knew I was faking
Did he care really 
I am scared to f things up 


I saw the exit 
I could swim to the top but...I had already signed the contract with death
Water and blood intertwined 
My heart was warning me I could feel it pounding before my eyes
The water I believe had it's own soul
It pushed my body trying to struggle for my last breath 
Even if it didn't struggle I would still give it because I gave up already 
I already gulped several ounces of water and I felt intense pain 
Sticky iron sweet sweet pain

The light shimmering from above the water mocked me of how vulnerable I was

Wow...so it is my time to die really 
This is not a failed suicide attempt...
Well..that is 
"Funny you are the broken one,while am the one who needed saving"
In my broken classroom 
I did everything else...you should have warned me .Now you cry that I am dead but I told you I wasn't okay...
You knew!!

In this horrifying possibility that I exist
My eyes are closed
At times I am so sad....I do not understand why i am sad 
I just cry i believe for nothing
Maybe i already died and i ceased doing everything thing living ,shown my life in scenes ....I must say am a boring girl🙄
When I was young I was forced to grow 40 years older




Rainbow days
Pweeetyy
Rain drops wow
You are just sunshine 
Mhhhh
Water wants my soul 
I fall
I drown 
I am dead
I am dead
The cold water winns 
It manages to convince me that my oxygen levels are too high
I love this feeling 
I love how being light headed feels
I loved you more???
Why did you leave 
You should have given me another chance 
Just one more
Oh...
Am I dead??
I AM DEAD








IMAGINE ♥️imagination 





WRITTEN BY
AMWAMA SHEBUNAH NYAIRABU 
YUROSUN 👑👑👑👑👑





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