SELFISH ALTRUISM💔

                  

I DANCED WITH MY DEMONS AND LET THEM LEAD THEN KILLED THEM 

YOU FEEL TOO MUCH YOU BECOME STOIC 

CODEPENDENCY 

APATHY AND EMPATHY 

Ikilledthedarkandfellinlovewiththesunrays♟

I will give a scenario 

Where you imagine yourself as a student and your classmates are the younger version of your friends at the moment let's say they are 6years of age you are still you with your present age

The teacher is in class...the bell rings and she/he asks for your colours so you give her and she gives each and every one a colour 

She says that each student should describe the colours as though they are describing them to a blind person 

So they start

Blue...hear the oceans and the waves

Red...being burnt

Yellow...warmth or near the fireplace when it is cold

Purple...heat of the fire and the coldness of ice mixed

 

You dont have anything to say you can only describe white and black

White because of emptiness and black because of the darkness of your soul

So she/he changes the question and asks if anyone has ever tasted the rainbow,  and ofcourse they have 😂kids..

So they start explaining

Red,orange and pink is sweet

Violet is bitter

White and blue ...salt

Green and yellow ...sour

Th bell rings

Class has ended

You go out to play 

But you realise you weren't given your colours so you go asking the children to give you back your colours...they disappear as well as the buildings and the grass is now sand you are now in a desert 

The teacher is there with you and tells you to write what you feel and hands you a blank paper and a pen

You wanted to write what you felt but somehow the page remained blank.you couldn't write anything because to you the page was full of nothing and that is what you felt...void!

The students are your friends 

The teacher is a problem your friends face

The colours represent how you help them 

 

Emotional invalidation 

The best situation is being at the worst part of your life you see peoples true colours

Some people are around you...few are there for you...presence is more than that

Rose's are red

Violets are blue

There you are being there for everyone but noone is there for you

And as a result of caring to much!!

Am not afraid to love or hate or feel fear 

I want to feel the sun on my skin

I want to hear the wind

I want to feel the rain drops

But my soul takes a rope of numbness and commits suicide 

And it doesn't even hurt

What is worse is craving to feel something and what you feel is nothing at all

You would rather feel sad and cry or happy 

Or even be bipolar but you are dead inside

So you self mutilate to feel pain💔

What is worse is the only ray of sunshine is after numbing the pain 

You feel again💔

AMPATHY

Use your imagination 

Written by shebu